Artist's Guilt

I spend A LOT of time in my studio. I feel guilty about how much time I spend painting - I often end up painting all weekend! Of course I love my time in the studio but it means I don't have much of a life outside of that and spend too little time with my family.

I also feel guilty when I'm not painting because it's not only my passion, it's also a job and ultimately I need to generate an income from it.

When I handed in my notice last year, I wrote a blog about being brave and taking a leap of faith. A week later, my work persuaded me to stay. I should probably have written another blog but I

felt like a fraud - I hadn't followed my dream to be a full time artist and had instead chosen the safe option.

But I have felt increasingly unhappy and unfulfilled at my current workplace and have lost a lot of confidence. It's hard enough trying to navigate peri-menopause whilst also being in a role that you are not suited to. It has definitely impacted on other areas of my life including my art. It was time for a change!

Next month I start my new part time job! I'm excited and looking forward to feeling like the old me again!

Today is Saturday and I am having a day 'off'! My husband and I have been to test drive a car and we've been listening to music whilst doing some admin. It doesn't get much more romantic than that in our house but it has felt very indulgent.

Happy Valentine's Day!